People Leave.

Hey guys! Me...again.

It's another one of my 'One Tree Hill' things but I can't get this image out of my mind. I suppose it is one things that really haunts me.

Today I went shopping, got me a t-shirt, it's a mans one though. It's black and says:

'Famous For Nothing Generation'

I quite liked it, had to get it in a large though cause Stef wanted the last medium.

£2 though, not bad, I love sales lol.

I bought a new school bag from 'Warehouse'. It's also black and just goes over my sholder, won't fits my folders in, but it will fit the majority of my books, I can carry the folders and put them in my locker.

Went into 'HMV', they're doing 2 t-shirts for £20 which is quite good. Stef and I have our eyes on a 'Black Kids' t-shirt, we're hoping to go see them soon, so we want the t-shirts for then. Then for my 2nd t-shirt, I'm going to get this t-shirt with the Joker on from 'The Dark Knight' it's awesome to be honest, Stef wants a Superman one, cause she's cool like tat.

Martin and Ashley were being so gay! All they talked about was 'COD4' that game was born, dead and buried a long time ago! They only do it to wind Stef and me up...

"Oh my COD"

"What?"

"I must mow the grass before it gets overgrown"

That kind of thing, if you play 'Call of Duty 4' you should know what they're on about. Stupid game.

My Dad's PA who has worked for him for 20 years had her last day today, he's really upset, had tears in his eyes and everything. Blesss. I love Helen, she is a full on legend - good luck with the new job!

Think of an animal you don't see in the UK....

What animal did you think of?

Bet it wasn't an Armidillo...Nah, didn't think so.

I'm in quite a nostalgic mood, wondering where half the people in my life are at the moment, what they're doing, what have they done since I have seen them last, who have they become, would I even like who they have become, do they ever think of me?

That kind of thing.

My heart goes out to Mausmi and her family right now, they're suffering from a loss and I will pray for them tonight.

Alot is going on right now, too many people disappearing, too many people have disappeared.

"Love is stronger than death." - Robert Fulghum. I hope this is true.

Probably way to deep for a teenager...

This is me in Russia, obviously this picture was totally not edited by me, to make me look extremley cool! :) Just thought you would like to see the super geeky things I get up to!

Lets face it guys, ABBA suck (apologies to Lumpy - why do all my friends seem to have strange nicknames?)! But, 'MAMMA MIA!' is awesome! Aslong as the songs themselves are not sung my ABBA, I have no complaints! I loves this film. Meryl Streep, all time favourite, she really hit the nail, and her voice is amazing! Julie Walters had me cracking up every 5 minutes and from the start I could tell she was going to be a character, one of the best parts, I think, was Julie Walters singing 'Take a Chance on Me' to a man obviously trying to escape her grasp. True lolage. If you haven't seen it, just go! Some of the voices are dissappointing, particually from the men, but it's such a feel good film, it doesn't matter! ****

A message to Lumpy: ABBA suck love! Their songs are legendary, when sung by anyone else, but ABBA. Squid (why the wiered names?) tells me this is because you're gay, got lopsided eyes and have a man crush on Hugh Grant...All of these things I will defend you on cause theyre super cool, but Lumpy the obsession with ABBA must stop! It's over, they're dead and buried, listen to MAMMA MIA! soundtrack instead! Okay Lumpy spooney boy! Love you lots, please don't hate me...Squid, stop laughing!

"Life contains but two tragedies. One is not to get your heart's desire; the other is to get it."

This quote was discussed on One Tree Hill (yes, I'm obsessed) and I thought it was something very interesting (no this isn't the end of the blog).

Is getting what your heart truley wants a tragedy? I should hope not, because it makes the whole thing of getting what you desire pointless, because it will hurt in the end. "Obviously this man hasn't kissed Erica Marsh" - Lol at Mouth.

Is getting what your heart desires a tragedy? Not getting your hearts desires, is one I can understand, because that truley is unfair, but it is said, that every man would experience and do everything if he just had the time, so maybe it is all a matter of time. But the Shaw (the irish playwrite who wrote the tragedy quote) also said, "don't try to live forever, you wont succeed". So I suppose what is being said is, it is a tragedy you do not have the time to get what your heart desires. But I think the 2nd part should be rephrased to "The other, is to get it, and loose it again." Any thoughts on this? Let me know.

Love, love, love. What is Love? I'm not the first to ask this, and I'm won't be the last because there is no definition, apart from what you find in the dictionary. You can't describe a passion such as love in words, I don't think it should be in the dictionary at all.

Is love a different experience for each person? I think so. I think each person knows what they think love feels like, or they know they will realise what it feels like when it comes along, so when they finally find love, if they are fortunate to do so, then they personally find out what love is and what it really feels like. That makes no sense at all, but that's fine.

Is love everybodies heart's desire? Do we all just want to be loved? Is it a tragedy that some one might never experience love, but the person next to them does? The person who does not feel love, nevers gets to have that overwhelming feeling of safety and comfort, but the person who does, has the fear of loosing it and the cruelness of a high which causes you to hit rock bottom if the low should approach. Would we all be better off without these desires?

So many things we would be better off without...Guns, knives, crime, gangs, thugs, self-harming, love, hate, religion, war, peace. For all these things cause pain. Guns and knives, kill and hurt, which not only physically hurt someone, but the grief of loss is as tragic as someone never learning to love. Crime, gangs, thugs, effect every one some how and people live in fear of them, no matter how much they try not to admit it to themselves or others. Self-harming, the world would be a better place without the lack of faith self-harmers have in the world, themselves and the people around them, it would be better if there was no need for the cutting. Love and hate, cause so much trouble, love is like poison, it slowly drains the life from you because it takes all your effort and it can turn you bitter, hate is digusting because negativity is something we don't need especially at that strength. Religion, we fight over so much. War and Peace. Wars are obvious, innocent people die, innocent men and women do unspeakable things such as take innocent peoples lives, Peace, is what it is all in the name for. If we didn't have it to fight for, there wouldn't be a problem.

Of course there are many more problems but if we didn't have them, there would be nothing to fix in the world, we would have nothing to do, we would just eventually destroy the perfection out of bordem, and then we would start either at square 1, or in a worse position than where we started. So maybe, if the hearts desire was perfection, it would be a tragedy to have it.

I suppose it is the end of my blog for today, I have done the whole quote thing in a lot more detail than normal. Mamma Mia! is a good film, go see it! And that's it from me until, tomorrow, probably, not sure.

One Tree Hill quotes, Ice Skating, a Dad must-read...

Happy Birthday to Squid. It's not his Birthday but apparently I started these blogs on his birthday and I didn't mention it, to be honest I didn't even know, but thats fine.

So guys, what has Chloé been up to? Well as always, I have been doing some pretty cool stuff that really will spice up your life if you decide to try them...

Yeah, as if.


Well, last night, I stopped at my girlie Stef's house, and we watched lots of One Tree Hill as always, (if I haven't convinced you to start watching them yet, then your a nutter...) and we stayed up until one o clock in the morning! Hardcore...


(Dan walks into the Kitchen to see Deb boiling a pan of water and mixing it with syrup, Deb has just heard about Dan paying Jules to fall in love with Keith...)
"What's the boiling water for?" - Dan

"To throw all over you..." - Deb

"What's the syrup for?" - Dan

"To make it stick..."- Deb


Deb is a legend! But let's face it, Tim is the one who makes One Tree Hill....




Tim Smith: [to Nathan] Are you sure you know this guy?

Nathan Scott: He works with me at Hot & Twisted [pretzel stand at the mall]

Nathan's colleague: Great, even the losers don't know me.

Tim Smith: Just read the damn quiz.

Nathan's colleague: [sigh] When your boyfriend kisses you, he a:...

Lucas 'Luke' Scott: What the hell are you reading?

Tim Smith: Cosmo Girl, go on... Nathan's colleague: When your boyfriend kisses you, he a: looks deeply into your eyes, b: closes his eyes, c: cradles your head softly, d: unhooks your bra.

Tim Smith: It's D, it's definitley D. You go for the bra.

Nathan Scott: Now, Tim, you realise you're supposed to be answering as a girl?

Tim Smith: I know, and i'd want a boyfriend who isn't afraid to go under my shirt!

Lucas 'Luke' Scott: And hopefully someday you'll find him.

Lolage.




Then we got up super early and Stef, Mama Groves, Chloe (Stef's sister) and myself went Ice Skating. Always fun! We did the whole early morning session so we weren't in with all the riff raff of Telford and it was just a few kiddies and some odd spods who felt the need to be up so early. Chloe can't skate very well so we had to hold her hand, she is so cute! As usual, Stef had a blister appearing on her foot, she always does, she brings hundreds of plasters with her - every time!


We had lunch at Asda, a quick look in Primarni (Primark for you lot who can't keep 'with it') and then it was home time.





Pretty Awesome to be honest.





Squid has been drowned with one huge, kick ass, playlist of all the cool music I listen to. I got truley offended when he said he didn't like Los Campesinos! Because I have only just started listening to them (thanks Barnes) but theyre amaze like! Squid sucks...he knows I kind of love him though 'cause we talk about the olympics!





If a certain someone don't stop texting me, I'm gonna kick off, like major. To be quite frank, I tried my very hardest to put him off me when we went to town, obviously did not work...





If there are any dad's reading this, I would just like to explain, if your daughter is texting a boy it does not mean ANYTHING! there is a high possibility she doesnt even want to text him, you can tell this if she sighs every time a message comes through, or if she doesnt read it straight away. If on the other hand, she jumps to her phone and smile comes across her face, shes interested and you need to go bitch slap some boyo who thinks they can have a bit of your daughter.





Hmm will talk tomorrow like.





"It is far better to grasp the Universe as it really is than to persist in delusion, however satisfying and reassuring." - Carl Sagan. For once I have found a quote I do not agree with. Pfft! What does this man know really!? He's one of those science people isn't he, where he can't believe anything that doesn't have definite proof. This is Jordan - the boy I had my unhealthy debate with...


Pfft. Pfft. Pfft. Thats the only word I can think of, the worst thing is, that word doesnt have a meaning in the dictionary. Pfft!

Designer Label vs Non-Designer Label, Un-healthy debates, Decent mates and 18th Birthday raves...

Woo Post number 10!
Aren't you lucky?

For everyone's info, as soon as I wrote that last blog, I was sooo over the boy thing. Pfft, to think I let these things wind me up.

So whats happend today? Woke up at 8.00 (Proud or what?) Had a bath not sure why, but i decided that seeming the shower was broke I better wash somehow. Went to have my eyebrows waxed and yes, as always, the bare area that used to be accomidated by eyebrow went bright red, but i'm used to walking round the village looking an idiot, it happens every 3rd saturday...I don't like half the people in Wombourne anyway.

Took a walk down to Gillis Rowland, the hairdressers in the village. Never used them before, but I needed a trim and a £50 cut at Toni & Guy is a waste, so Gillis Rowland it is. It's not to shabby to be honest and it was less than half the price. Prefer Toni & Guy though, but then again, designer label vs non designer label...
My hair doesnt look much different...got a new parting, not worth posting a picture over though.

I came home and chilled. Tonight is party night and at 9.00 I will be raving up town. Well I say that, what I mean is at the Bar Rachel has hired out. lol.
I have gave myself a manicure in the vain hope, if I pay attention to these little details I wont feel a nervous wreck about my appearance, considering I will know half the people by face and about 3-5 people (incl. the birthday girl) by name I don't know why I'm bothering over what they will think. Probably because they're older than me.

I learnt some of my lines for my Shakespeare play last night! Go Me! My first real effort since the start of the holidays. My sister refused to help and she quickly disappeared into the broken shower, haha, looser. So I typed my lines out from memory and when I got them wrong, I cleared the page and typed them all out again! And you never guess what, I know them even down to the punctuation. Sad-o.

I had a rant with that boy who crushed me yesterday. It was a fast paced debate. He was moaning at the world and it's ways and I had a counter argument. He believes in physics and science, I too believe in the hard evidence of the world but also believe in the things the world hasn't proven to be wrong (fate, reincarnation, magic that kind of thing) in other words, innocent until proven guilty. He on the other hand, if it hasn't been proven it isn't true.
We both left the conversation irritated - he laughed when I said there was no reason for people NOT to believe in Fairies.

Pfft. That's all I have to say.

So I got the tunes on, anxious about tonight, not sure how I'm going to pull this off. Not sure where my shoes are either.
Guys listen to 'The Go! Team' they're awsome for putting you in the par-tay mood. Well, it's not working right now, but they do normally.

"The true measure of a man is how he treats someone who can do him absolutely no good." - Samuel Johnson. That is such a cool quote, because it is true, the human race are out there for themselves. There is no possible way to say you can judge people by, how they treat other people in general because there is always a motive. Someone who can't offer you anything...now why would you be nice to them? Cause your a good person, there is no motive there. Thinking about that, it has helped me see how many of my friends are descent people, it's a shame I can only think of 2 or 3 (Stef, and her psycho boy - private joke). Self realisation?

Loosing Faith, fate and boys (Shamefully)

Well, Stef stopped at mine last night and to be honest with you, it was a good night. No tears, for once but still a good night. Hours of one tree hill as always! Jake is back! Woo! and then at 5 this morning we were rolling round in my little sisters double bed, laughing our heads of at Kite surfing and psycho boys taking knives, alocohol and mobile phones in to the woods at night. 'Cause we're nice.

I have lost all faith in the world today. I'm going to tell you about it because let's face it, this is just an online diary. Other people aren't meant to read your diaries but at the end of the day, nothing is private, so just post it online anyway, cut out the un necessary fuss. I thought I would write it all while it's raw...

I love helping people out and that is no secret to anyone. I could sit for hours and talk to people about their problems but I'm loosing faith in myself. Why do I always end up emotionally crushed. At the time I'm fine, but weeks down the line, months if I'm lucky, I have heard enough bad news enough sob stories and had my own stuff on top of that and it just gets on top of me. How can I ever persue a life in Psychology if I can't even hold myself together when it comes to petty teenage moans.

I told myself, when you loose faith, find the thing that made you gain the faith in the first place. I suppose that is the feeling I get when someone thanks me. When someone is truley grateful for what I've done. I don't get it all the time, but it's worth the wait. Then today, this lad I've met on holiday. He was so nice to me and we got along great and I've been trying to encourage him to take chances on life, you know, because he deserves it.

He's passed his GCSE's and got a job. He's met a girl at this job and he thinks she's beautiful. At this point my heart hit the pit of my stomach and I realised what I have done...I've got emotionally involved again and now I'm jelous of a girl who lives at the bottom of the country. Worst of all, he didn't thank me. So now, because I have been living the past month and a half with pretty much complete lack of sleep, I'm not in the mood to have some ungrateful boy, crush me, tell me about how beautiful this new girl is, and then try to convince me fate isn't real. Yes, this discussion is happening right now. It's one of those I get fired up on as well. Not a good combination.

It's just the way of the world isn't it...

"Good looking girls are like good looking boys, they pick you up and then when they dont need you anymore drop you."

That's what I told him. I didn't mean to be horrible to this girl, and discourage him from going and chatting to her, I was trying to let him know how I felt. Because it is true, good looking people get cocky real quick about how they look and they have their pick of relationships. It's the way of life, we have all come to accept it. And they drop you when the next one comes along. It's disheartening but I thought he was genuine you know...one of those that just before they get cocky still have that timid innocence. Pfft, as if. They're all the same.

Nobody told me when I was growing up it would be hard to find genuine people. Because as much as I believe he is a good person, he has that same streak every other person has. He's like Haley from One Tree Hill, my mate Stef will know what I'm on about.

The most funny thing about this is, I don't 'love' him or whatever you crazy kids call it, my stomach doesn't turn to butterflies, I don't think about him constantly, but there was something there that I thought we could build on, a friendship thats just a tid bit stronger...obvsiously not. To think I pride myself in not bothering over boys.
He lives too far away anyway.

So there you go, that's how today I got emotionally squashed.

I just don't know why I try sometimes. People are ungrateful, selfish, narrowminded and scared to believe in things they can't understand. Yet, I want to devote my life to helping these people out. I should hope the world changes itself before too long.

I need some Red Bull or Coffee I think. Always makes me feel happier =/ Might stick to Red Bull, already got coffee breath Yuck!

Haha, just brilliant...we're out of Red Bull, what do people expect me to survive on!? Coffee it is. Don't think we have much milk left...brilliant, an excuse to drink it black.

You know what, I'm not going to let this dishearten me, I will feel bitter today but tomorrow, after a good sleep I will feel better and go back to craving that appreiciated feeling, doing what I can to get it, helping everybody else - it's all a bit selfish really isn't it.

"Trouble travels fast, when you're specially desgined for crash testing." - Jack Johnson. I think that's me. I think I have possibly created myself as a crash tester. Taking people's problems and thinking of way's to set it all okay again, that's asking for trouble isn't it? Maybe fate made me this way on purpose, but a very true and interesting insight from good ol' Jack. Musical legend.

Haven't heard of him? Listen to 'Inbetween Dreams' and his latest album 'Sleep Through The Static.'

Stef is home, France Trip, Awkward Facebok and optimistics vs. pessimistics.

I'm so much happier now Stef is home!

We went to town yesterday, I got myself a top for this party on Saturday and I lost my scarf. We only spent an hour up town, so I went back to Stef's. Then she asked lovley Mama G, if I could stop the night :) So I did.

We had a good catch up and I realised how much that damn girl means to me. She's pretty special.
One Tree Hill - Good stuff. But now I don't know whether to believe Stef or not when she spoils it for me. Cause alot of the times she lies, then she suprises me by telling the truth. Hmm...

I put my pictures from the history trip to France on Facebook and it took me hours because Facebook was being a bitch and awkward.

( Everyone from the New World history and the History Hybrid class that went to France at Juno Beach Center.)

Not much else to report unfortunatley because I have pretty much spent my time with Stef.
Exam results tomorrow, I will let you know how that goes!

"The optimist proclaims that we live in the best of all possible worlds, and the pessimist fears this is true." - James Branch Cabell. I have been called a pessimist in my time and I'm now trying to live a life of an optimist. And I can relate to this totally. Being a pessimist just includes crying over the fact what we have in life is the best it's going to get, optimisits on the other hand see this as a good thing. I'm not sure the best way to look at the world all I know is that the world is only as bad as you make it, but don't over-do it. You're not human if you don't see things from a negative point of view every once in a while!

Ikea, School Shop, Fall Out Boy, Stef, Exam Results, King Lear and Sharon Stone.

So, how we doing?

I'm really getting into the Olympics. I'm not particually thrilled by it all, but, I am finding them strangley addictive. I love the Gymnastics, especially the bar and the floor. Brilliant. Not too sure about the men's though 'cause well, it's not right.

What have I been doing the past couple days? Well, nothing.

I went to Ikea finally! Picked out a new bed. Havent ordered it yet though cause we were unsure of the bedroom measurments. Also we picked out a colour scheme. Good ol' Ikea. We're thinking, Bright orange walls, White ceiling. White bed. Black framed mirrors and Black picture frames. I think it's a funky mix. I want a big wardrobe though, but don't look like its happening.
On the same day, we went to get my blazer, my sisters blazer and my brother's first blazer. He's moving into year 7 bless him!

Yesterday, we went to Merry Hell, most commonly known as Merry Hill shopping center. Had to get school stuff. So we hit M&S - a good place to start if you ask me. We managed to get pretty much everything uniform wise. I needed Blouses, P.E tops and P.E. trackie bottoms and new trousers (which I get from Topshop) and a school bag (I often include pencil case and equipment under this category.) It was an epic fail for me. I managed to get, P.E tops (the last pack of aged 16) from M&S - What a let down. I got my Trackie bottoms from J.D (£30, outrageous but daddy was tiered at this point) and a new pencil case with equipment. LET DOWN! Not even 'Topshop' had trousers for me. I was almost in tears, well not really, but still. I love my Topshop trousers by tradition! Not impressed. Well, it just means I will have to use my Work Experience trousers, I've probably grown out the age where I wear 'Rockports', will have to turn to my flat shoes.

I've done £35 worth of Babysitting and Kat has asked me to go to Fall Out Boy. They're alright to be honest, I have their album and in the day, I learnt every word to it. Boys Like Girls are playing as well. They're not as good, not the worst band ever though. So I paid for my tickets using babystitting money. Which was good cause we thought the tickets were going to double and I started the mahoosive ironing pile just incase. So really, I have extra money now. Though my dad and I havent negotiated the hourly ironing rate.

Stef got back today which I'm so happy about 'cause I have missed her like mega! We're going to town tomorrow.Which is good 'cause I need to get a new top for this party on saturday.

I'm quite suprised really. My Dad is letting me to a party, AND a gig in B'ham. I've never been so trusted. I think it's 'cause he's worried about me not going out enough. Which I'm not suprised at, cause I don't go out enough. But still, I'm not fussed cause I love being at home. I'm comfortable. Might 'cause problems in the future though.

Exam results back on Thursday. Woo. School's going to be busy. Year 11's get all their GCSE results, so I'm guessing there will be tears. I'm going in to get some of mine. I have my Science results, and my history exam and coursework results.

They are being stupid with the science for us lot. Normally, science will spread over two years but NO! They're doing it all wierd. Making us do our Science GCSE in year 10 and then in year11 we have to work on Applying Science or something like that. So really, it's two GCSE's but a load of pants either way. Basically, its science the 1st year and then extra science the 2nd year which is so frustrating 'cause Im bad at science as it is. I'm looking forward for my history results. My school have took on the Hybrid course. It's a new course they want to bring out but they're testing it on some schools. I took Hybrid 'cause it sounded cooler :). We did a massive piece of coursework on the Holocaust, it was a depressing time but we got through it. Apparently, my teacher marked it at top marks, sooooo, the examiner should only knock a few marks off. It means though I'm expecting a A* for it, and I don't want to expect that because it's going to CRUSH me if I don't. We did an exam on Medieval Kings. I'm not too sure what to expect on that though. So I'm excited. It's meant to be a hard course and the school are dropping it after us because they can't get the pass rate high enough, which sucks, 'cause I love it and find it mega easy! But I'm clever.

My older half-brother did really well (I say he's my half-brother but I call him my brother. He's so much more than a brother at times.) in his A levels. He took, Business, Maths and Chemistry and got 2 B's and a C. He's going to Uni! Woo! Love him! He's going down to Portsmouth by the seaa! Im so jelous, i may have to visit him...and the beach. I'm so proud, it wasn't looking so good earlier this year! GO CHRIS!

I have to learn my lines for King Lear. I haven't started. I'm playing Regan, Lear's middle daughter. I die or something, poison I think. I have only done it for extra experience in Drama. It's my first lead part in years 'cause I took a huge break from Drama until last year. I have 3 weeks when we get back to school before we perform it in the Shakespeare School Festival. In a real theatre, not just in school. This is suckish 'cause I can tell I'm not going to be up for it. Oh well, I love a challenge I suppose. 2 weeks until school, which means, I need to learn my lines before I get back because it's straight into rehersals. I've been given 6 weeks in all fairness, but If I'm not going out Ive been trying to make money or just haven't felt like doing it and read my book instead, which is alot more interesting to be honest. I hate to admit it but I hardly understand what I'm talking about in this play. 'I am made of that self mettle as my sister. She name's my very deed of love. Only she comes too short.' This is my 1st line...that's all I know out the whole play, my 1st line and I'm not sure if that is right, I will have to check. I just about know what that means though.

All is good in the hood, gonna give up I think, pull out the script and memorise woo. This year is going to be work work work in school and I wont have chance to learn them I reckon. Even if it is the 1st few weeks.

"Women might be able to fake orgasms. But men can fake a whole relationship." - Sharon Stone. We have all learnt this to be true. It's a shame. Silly boys.

Guitar Hero, XKCD, Boys that are like Brothers, A reason to like facebook and Thomas Edison!

I went to Harriet's house today :)

I took her over a pair of blue skinny jeans that I bought but really don't fit me. I lost the receipt and I knew she would love them, so she's gonna give me a tenner and that's them gone for the rest of my life (gutted).


I got my cup of tea which was extremley nice. We spent 4 hours on guitar hero, it's just not healthy, and I suck on it really, really, really bad!

My friend Ryan deserves a kick up the ass for introducing me to this site but it has loads of cool cartoons on it. I saw this really cool one on Guitar Hero.


(http://www.xkcd.com/)

Harriet is amazing though, I do love her, and her family!

Tomorrow, I go to Jordan's house. I like Jordan he makes me laugh. We are anything but a couple, he's so much of a brother to me. We have lot's of jokes and we know how to wind eachother up big style which is always fun to do. I have to get on the bus at 11.30 though which I cant be bothered with, but he's my friend so I shall!

I made contact with some people from my old primary school today. Before I moved to America I lived in a little village called Church Eaton and I had some amazing friends, thanks to Facebook I'm talking to some again and I'm quite happy. They were too good of friends to loose, but at the time I was 7 and thought I would go back to them. Gutting.

I fell out big style with this girl Sarah about this time last year. It wasn't as much the argument, I'm a forgiving person and couldn't care less about what she did, it was more the fact she refused to say sorry and prepared to throw our friendship away, so that's what she did. But now I realise, I could of just as easily said sorry and I was worse than she was. So today I made contact with her just to say I supported her on her straightedge campaign. I won't say I'm her friend, cause I'm not, there's been a year gap and we're both different people now, but, it's a start right?

Not much else to comment on today, lack of happenings. Quotes and stuff...

"I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work." - Thomas Alva Edison. I love people with this attitude, this is the attitude I'm trying to take on in life. Just pick up the pieces and move on, if it hasn't killed you, then what you stressing over? Silver lining and all that! Keep trying until you get things right! Woo Thomas Edison! Let's celebrate his genius-nes.

The Black Knight 5*'s, Unsatisfied and a Humorous Quote.

Heath Ledger (playing as the Joker in the picture on the left), God bless, deserves and Oscar! I went to see Batman: The Dark Knight and the Joker was the most immense character I have seen on the big screen! His character was so believable, Batman became nothing, it was all about the clown man. I heard that Heath Ledger because of his unfortunate death had to have some other actors film about 15 minutes of the film. If this is true then I couldn't tell, I was suspicious at one point where his body build looked different but maybe I was looking for it. Is the Dark Knight too scary for children? No! Not if your 10+, yes in the first few minutes about 6 people got killed, but it was a case of, seeing the trigger being pulled, hearing a bang, and seeing some one fall to the floor. Yes there is a man with a half maimed face and the Joker likes to talk about his scars but only sissy's wont be able to stomach it. If you have concerns about letting your children see it, go see it for yourself first. Simple as. I loved the intensity through out the film, the pace was amazing it kept going and going! I can't explain how much I loved it. It is going to become a classic, it's better than the Bond films, better than Bourne films and up and beyond ANY other superhero film. ***** 5 star rating from me.

I was meant to go to Ikea today. I love Ikea, my dads girlfriend - not so much. I need to look at some bedroom furniture because the bro needs his own room. We're going on Thursday instead now but I dont mind because the highlight of my day has been Batman, I don't need any more highs.

Tomorrow I go see Harriet. Im going to go after 1.30 cause I have to babysit, gutting. It's not the babysitting I get paid for either. Ahh well! I will have to remember to take Harriet's present and blue skinny jeans to her - which are amazing if I do say so myself. I fancy a go on guitar hero which is an AWESOME game if you havent tried it, and my baby girl Haz owns two guitars, so guess what I will make her do after she's made me my cuppa tea :) Me and Harriet have a kind of deal, I offer her lots of emotional support and because shes awful at giving advice, she gives me a unlimtied supply of cheese and ham toasties, I think tea comes under that as well.

Alot of people have told me I'm too mature for my age, but I have never really felt that. Not until today anyway! I feel like I'm missing out on something but I can't tell what! I know alot of people my age go to town every Saturday and chill and do other things - is that what I'm missing out on? I hope it is, because it seems extremley boring to me. I just don't feel like a teenager and its depressing. I sleep in, spend too much time on the computer and I'm still lazy, but the teenage feel has worn off. Maybe I'm growing up, it's depressing. I feel like crying to be honest...better avoid razor blades.

I'm not sure what it is, the lack of teenage feeling, Heath Ledger's death, missing my buddy Stef while she's sunning it up in Florida or the frustration of falling into a routine but my life feel so incomplete and unsatisfied. Maybe, I need to try something new. I think I might just need to focus my attention on something...a project. Hopefully decorating my new room will be what I'm looking for.

Quotation?

"He is one of those people who would be enormously improved by death." - H. H. Munro. This isn't nice but I laughed my socks off when I came across it. I can think of a few people to apply this to. But, who are we to decided who deserves death and who deserves life? Still, funny stuff.

10 reasons to lower the driving age, the pains of year 11, the future and living life.

Yes, aren't you lucky...two posts in one day. This time I'm here to rant.
I'm just bored. Aha! How many times have you heard that one?
Being young is just impossible, and I'm not wishing my life away because I'm scared stiff of growing up, but c'mon!

The government complain of knives and teenagers with knives. In the paper today I read about a young adult that they're after for graffiting. I wonder why people do these things? Teenage pregnancy is another one people moan about. Next year, I will be legal to have sex and theoretically allowed to have a baby (Dad might have something to say about that) but soceity frown upon it because we're too young! We can't change the law, we're not legal to vote or anything like that. Have a look at the states, now, I'm not going to say they're doing everything right because they're not. But at the age of 16, you can drive! I mean, they dont have any problems with teenage pregnancy!

My point is, if teenagers could drive:
1) They wouldn't be hanging on the streets. 2) They could go places, and not be tempted to drink which often leads to sex (lets face it guys.) 3) They could visit more places in the country because to be honest I've had it up to here *indicates top of head* with adults moaning about how un cultured teenagers are. 4) no more "I'm bored comments" 5) It would teach us the value of money - tax, insurance, petrol etc etc. 6) It would teach responsibility 7) Adults can stop becoming taxi services 8) Teenagers will have more incentive to join clubs because they don't need to worry about transport which will encourage social skills. 9) It will encourage teenagers to spend less time on the internet 10) It can be used as a punishment, "If you do that again I will take your car off you!" :)

I know that it wont be during my time but I will be thankful the second I see teenagers driving.
Look at this way, I could, be married, with child, smoking, covered in piercings and working before I could drive. Pathetic. I have definitley decided, if I could drive, I would drive to Wales all the time and I would go to the beach alot. Yes, I would experience real fresh air!

So, it's year 11 for me when I go back to school. Alot of kids look forward to this year, mainly because its the shortest school year with exam leave and stuff. I'm glad I will be going back to school because I will have something to do, but it means I have to think about 6th form, grr. Then, when the year finishes, and I'm on exam leave, I will be bored...all over again! I suppose this time round I will have some studying to do, but once exams are finished what will I do? I can't drive anywhere. I might just go round sexing people cause of the bordem...yes goverment, you drove me to it! I am joking, I have managed so far to avoid most social atrocities that teenagers commit and I plan on it staying that way but just so you know...It is possible!

What do I want to do then after year 11? Well the school have had us thinking about it this year and I have known what I have wanted to do since some years back. First and foremost, I have had to give up my dream of being on stage and don't give me that, never give up crap because the business is getting harder and harder to get into. Plus I have too much of an academic brain to waste my life on something like performing :(. I will take drama as far as I can in my life, all the way to university if I can (oh wow, a teenager who wants to carry on school all the way to uni! Yes, it's true!)

I want to go to 6th form, most probably at Ounsdale, the school I'm at now. I am registered as Gifted & Talented in school so I can ask to take 5 A levels. Aren't I special? It's not my fault I enjoy learning. If I could do that, I will most probably take:
Drama or Performing Arts,
History,
English Lit and Lang,
Pyschology and
Sociology.

History and Psychology are definites. I would like to take Performing Arts over drama but it is a BTEC subject and some universities don't like them and the BTEC takes up like 2 A levels. So I might take drama, but if I take neither I will continue drama out of school. I would like to take Sociology along side Psychology, only because I think it will be usefull.

Psychology is what I want to study at university, preferably at Cardiff. I want to celebrate my Welsh herirtage by living in Wales at some point, this is a great way to do it, plus, they are known for their Psychology. Hopefully, I will do a year at Cardiff and get a scholarship to go to an American university. This is because I want to work and live in America. Why? Because, there is more money in Psychology over there and I America was a big part of my life when I was young, and it's just a place I want to be. I did initally think of just doing my Uni in America, but, a degree here is equivilant to an American masters, so I might do it this way. So, what is my back up plan? I don't have one, I'm not giving myself the choice.

Why Psychology? Because I'm good at it. It's something my Dad is well into and I have picked it up from him, I watch too much Criminal Minds and have picked it up from there. I spend alot of my time listening to other people and helping themselves sort it out, so I guess I'm a natural. I find it amazingly intresting, I'm an extremley nosey person and love figuring things out about people and to do it on a higher level that I'm doing it now is just a goal.

After that I'm going to find a husband, nice house, and two children (Ryan and I have had this discussion, obviously it is him that I will marry) :) Why do I know what I want? because I'm so bored from not driving I have nothing else to do apart from thinking about the future - it's all I have.

I just want to get out of Wombourne. It's soooo boring! It is full of racist old people. I can't stand the lack of privacy, I don't want to do anything in the fear people I know will see me or be there. There is no where to go, no where to walk to. I have to catch the dingey bus to get out the area and even then I go to three places, Town (even less privacy & cold), Merry Hill (Gets old after 3 years) and Stourbridge (Full of muggers, nothing to do, also cold.) I'm generally not trusted by my Father to do much anyway. I feel locked inside my bedroom, with only a computer screen for company, it's so frustrating. I can't wait until I can start climbing, if I'm allowed, but I have to find a descent centre first!

Prom this year! I suppose I act more excited than I am for it. I'm on the year book comitee though so I got a bit of a job to do this year. I don't know what I'm going to do though cause I don't have a date or nothing and I don't know what I want for transport, or for a dress. The thought of wearing dress infront of lots of other people is daunting. Especially as the other girls in my school are gorgeous I don't know how I'm even going to compare.

Yuck! I am bored of realtionship problems. Trust me, I don't have any, but I do know alot of people who do. I wish that for once people just lived! Just be happy. Live life. I can't stand people who continually throw,"Live life to the full, you only have one life" and other such sayings in your face when they have done something stupid like smoked weed. To me, living life to the full is all about looking at what you want to enrich your life with and seizing every moment to ensure you fulfill it. Not wasting a day (which I have said before includes learning something everyday), taking the bad things in life, finding the silver lining but finding the passion to stand up for what you think is wrong because it is only human to be negative. I understand living in the now, because no, you don't know what will happen tomorrow, but what happens if you survive tomorrow and the day after and the day after and the day after that? All I'm, saying is, live life but don't screw up your future. Just to prove a point I heard that these two lads got killed in a motorbike accident. They were both high and stole the motorbike...turns out living life to the full worked out for them.

I don't know about you, but I'm slightly bored now, quote anyone?

"Try to learn something about everything and everything about something." - Thomas Henry Huxley. Sounds like something I might say :) I agree with this man, you go Mr. Huxley!

Breakdown in Wales, Teenagers and size 0, Book Reviews and Pablo Picasso.

I went to Wales for the weekend :).

I am half Welsh, my Dad came from Newport and moved to England when he was 20 something. I have alot of family over there and we often travel an hour and a half on a Saturday to visit them all. My family will often meet at my Grandma's house because it's the biggest house to fit us all in. There are 10 adults and 9 children that meet on a weekend and we are all really close. Two of my cousins are half Norweigen from my Aunties side of the family. My Aunty and my two cousins are moving out there for 4 months so the kids can learn better Norweigen while my Uncle stays at home and continues to work. He's going out there twice to see them but I still think it is unfair. We had a bit of a leaving party at my Grandma's which was fine, we had a overload on the chicken but what do you expect? On the way down, my Dad's car broke. We managed to get their but we had to stay in 1st gear, which wasn't fun. So we had a recovery truck take us home. As you can tell, I'm thrilled about this - not. I listend to my iPod because I seriously could not be bothered.

I had hurt mny back from walking! I thought excercise was meant to be GOOD for you! I'm certainly not walking like that again for a while, I pulled two muscles in the bottom of my back and by george did it hurt. They're better today, I don't have to walk and bend like a pregnant woman (I'm pretty sure this worried my Dad how much of a natural I was at this).

Being a girl I'm not really into sport. Because I'm Welsh and proud of my herritage I am always keen to watch a bit of rugby but that's just part of being a Davies I believe. I am glad the Olympics have started though because I find watching sport one of the most tedious things ever but something about the Olympics and having all the countries come together just does something for me. I dread the embarrassment of us holding the next Olymnpics in 2012. The country doesn't have any money as it is.

I'm not going to lie to you. I loved reading fashion magazines and did so for a good few months and had to stop because my self esteem was driven into the ground. I'm still recovering actually but I tend not to think about it. The after effect of this has caused me to be weight conscious. But I was 11 stone when I went on holiday, I came back I was 10. I put on a bit more weight once the continual swimming had stopped but I lost it and now I'm just under 10 stone, which is good - need to keep it up. I was one of those kids who couldn't imagine why the size 0 thing was such a big deal to girls and vowed never to fall into that, I didn't understand how looking at pictures could make you fall into that situation. If your like that and don't understand, I can explain. When you look at some one and think 'hmm, they have a nice figure' you tend to want to think of yourself with that figure or think of a way to gain that figure. This is natural and for most people remains just a thought because at the end of the day, it was a normall passerby and you were never going to see that person again. When you have fashion magazines you see a figure you like and then the thought is left to develop because on every page that figure re appears and it isn't just for one issue it's for every single issue. Also, because they're pictures they don't just pass by and leave your life forever, they're a permanent record of what you don't have. This is when you envy and hate the girls in the magazine and think how lucky they are to have what they have because they look so good. The tourment is unexplainable, it wasn't until I stopped reading them, I realised what I was putting myself through. I love fashion though and miss reading the magazines, but they weren't doing me any good.

Do I have any plans for this week? Not really, my two best mates are still on holiday and I'm not too happy about it! Today, I have sorted out my room a bit after watching 2 hours of the Olympics (those two british swimmers who got the medals did alright didn't they? and go Nicole Cook!), tomorrow I'm going to Ikea to look for bedroom furniture, I should be moving rooms soon in with my little sister because my brother needs his own room - whatever! Wednesday I'm going to my friend Harriet. She is like the ultimate best mate, I have been so close with her since the day we met in Reception and I doubt that faze will end soon. Thursday shall involve me coming back over to my Dad's from my Nan's and probably going out for a meal, as it often does. Friday nothing planned yet, might chill. Then the weekend is a whole different subject!

Anyone who is a fan of rock or metal or anything like that would of heard of DragonForce, the crazy Asians! They're playing in Birmingham Academy, hopefully my cousin Ryan and I shall have a venture down there and rock out!

I'm not into just Rock. I love everything. I'm an everything person. I love music that makes me want to dance, mosh, rave, sing, cry, laugh, sleep. I love music that makes me feel. That's all I need. Good lyrics are a bonus, but not ALWAYS necessary, I mean have you heard some of the orchestra's going round these days? They can create these walls of sound that are breath taking! Being an everything person has it's advantages. I can guarantee I like what everyone else likes while still being myself, because I have so much in common with them plus more. Even if I am not a huge fan of something I still enjoy talking about it, an example is football, I'm not a fan but I will chat with the boys about it, if that's the conversation topic. Though, I'd rather talk about something more intellectual and deep it's not always possible with the standards of Wolverhampton. No offence or anything.

I'm reading a book at the minute called 'Accacia' by David Anthony Durham, the story has just started kicking off but I'm thoroughly enjoying it. It is about a father, the king, who is assasinated and sends his children off to a secret place to be protected. It is a fantasy but it's not full of tacky magic and really long names which is often a down point to fantasies. It has this medieval feel to it but it is one of those stories that for once you believe is set in a different world. I will give a better review once I have finished but it is a 500 page book with little font and I'm only on page 145. Hopefully I will finish it before the end of the holiday's and at this rate I might with the lack of entertainment.

If you are looking for a great read, nothing to indepth but something that steers you away from the likes of 'Angel' by Katie Price then start reading 'The Belegariad' by David Eddings. He is definitley my most favourite author of all time but unfortunatley this series does invovle long names. It is all about the adventures of Garion, a simple farm boy and how his actions, controlled by the Prophecy, takes him to the point where if he wins or looses dictates the outcome of the Earth. There is a second series called 'The Malloreon' totalling to about 10 books. They're full of beautifully created characters, the odd love story is thrown in there, tension, excitment, happiness, sadness, bewilderment and a story so well woven you feel part of it. I honestly recommend it!

If your not the fantasy type and prefer a bit of historical fiction then I recommend Elizabeth Chadwick. I have read three of her books, 'Shadows and Strongholds' 'The Marsh Kings Daughter' 'The Conquest' all of these include some famous figures such as King John, Henry V. The battle of Hastings is in there and even piracy has squeezed it's way in there. They are all love stories and they are beautiful. Elizabeth Chadwick has a way with words that is undescribable and she makes not of every detail, emotion, and thought. I just wanted to run off to a Medieval convention aftwerwads but I curbed my inner-geekness. I also have heard good reviews of Phillipa Greggory, famously known for 'The Other Boleyn Girl'. Both a friend and a teacher have recommend 'The Queen's Fool' and have mentioned she also has great skill in writing. So check them out!

Quote anyone?...

"Give me a museum and I'll fill it." - Pablo Picasso. I love that quote! I think it's brilliant. When work is getting on top of me and I'm struggling I turn to that quote and it gives me the incentive to carry on. It's a simple statment of determination, I think we should all live by that quote, maybe the world would get some much needed things done!

Walks and slightly less than insperational talks.

Today, I went for a walk. My friend and I decided that the walk would be a very good idea and we set out along the canal at 12.30 from Wombourne, walked to Tetenhall, and made it back to where we started from by 4.00. We spent most of the time pondering where we were, simply because when walking along a canal, you can either go forwards...or backwards, so as we continued to treck on, unfamiliar sites and areas appeared. The only clues we had were the bridge numbers as we passed under them, this of course is not much help to the unexperienced canal walker aka my lovely friend Kat and myself.

It was quite scenic and I really enjoyed it, but I will ache in the morning. After Kat's parents picked her up from The Mount Pleasant I walked back to my house about 10 minutes away. Half way there, I felt my legs start to shake, my heart was beating really fast and I was becoming breathless. Seeming I have a standard stamina and have walked alot more than I have done today, I thought this to be rather strange then it hit me...I hadn't eaten all day, and I had drank two cans of red bull...that combination is bound to send you funny. I ate some cheese on toast and a pack of crisps, this soon made me feel better! Now I'm experiencing growing pains, but this of course is completley unconnected.

So, my dad picks me up from my nans and as he normally does on a Friday, stops by The Mount Pleasant to have a drink. This means of course, I went along with him. Sitting outside in the smokers area a few conversations crop up between my dad and his friend as they often do. Somehow a conversation gets brought up between me and my father about a man called John Kimberly. He gave me a teddy bear for my 8th birthday when I lived in America, I asked my Dad what happend to that man and he told me he was probably tanning up in his villa on some obscure island. "So's he's got a bit of money has he?" I ask my Dad. "He's stinking rich, he was the founder of Firefox before it was sold to Mozilla." Yes, I knew the founder of Firefox and he gave me a teddy bear, aren't I something special :). I have always believed that a day where you haven't learnt anything, is a day wasted - I officially haven't wasted this day.

I'm just watching Criminal Minds right now. If you haven't seen it yet, get on to it! It's a brilliant programme all about investigations. It's not another CSI because it's not about using physical evidence to convict criminals, it's about using profiling (which in it's time has been called intelligent guessing but it's just a form of psychology) if your intrested in using the mind then this is your kind of programme. I love it anyway, I learn loads from it.

So, I have decided to give my pointless blog a bit of a twist I am going to end each one with a quote. It can be a quote from anywhere, but a quote it shall be. Hopefully it will give your mind something to dwell on as so far I have failed in ranting, as I often do. So...here's the first quote.


'The secret of life is honesty and fair dealing. If you can fake that, you've got it made." - Groucho Marx
Sadly, this is true, we all want to live life the right way, but the most successful people are always the ones who deceive and manipulate.

First Post - Dom.Rep.

Hi, I'm Chloé and welcome to my blog!

I started writing this because seeming it is the summer holidays, I thought it would be good fun to find something intresting for me and a friend to do. I googled for hours and it all just kept coming up with all this crazy, random stuff that didn't really intrest me. I came across one idea that said I should try blogging and although I'm not overlly sure what blogging is, I thought I would give it a try. So here you have me. Just incase if anyone is wondering, my friend and I have decided to go on a walk with a picnic - fun right?

I guess you will have to check back before anything readable is posted but for now, you can hear about my holiday's so far!

I went to the Dominican Republic two days before the end of school term and let me tell you, it was awesome! I have been before and I loved it then, so me and my family thought it would be a clever idea to go and see it all one more time. I met so many people that I can't imagine living my life without now. Also it's such a beautiful, caring, happy country that you feel so bad the locals live in poverty (it's cruel).

My holiday included some pretty cool things, like:

• Outback Safari - Where they take you on a tour of the island where you can experience a typical dominican home, how cigars are made, jungle scenery, island food and boogie boarding. It was a real eye opener because you saw so much of the island that you never knew was there. I remember leaving the trip feeling a whole new person, not only did I feel lucky for all the things I have, I now have a new appreciation for natural beauty.
• Tropical Storm - This excursion included taking you out on a boat and letting you view the coast from the ocean, snorkelling, a giant blow up water slide and swimming in a natural pool. It was beautiful and not to mention so much fun. We listend to really cool music on the boat and spent our time dancing and cruising along. It was an intresting way to view the island because it had such a relaxed feel to it rather than a touristy one.
• Shopping Trip - Can you guess what we did here? Well to start with we went to a cigar making factory and gift store which was okay, pretty intresting but the smell was so strong I felt sick. Then, we went to a mall with designer shops and cafes. It was pretty empty because it is a poor country but they had some really nice clothes in. We went to eat at the hard rock café and I got myself a t-shirt :). Then, just to give you some contrast they take you to a local market. It's not a market in a sense of stalls and lots of people busily walking around, it was more of a run down version of a shopping mall, selling souviners that were all identical to the next shops. I didn't enjoy this bit because people were forcing you to come into their shops and because they were so friendly, you felt bad for not buying anything. We even had beggers come up to us but we were told not to give because it encourages children not to make the effort to go to school.

All in all Domincan Republic was a great experience the second time round and I'm glad we did it. I will try and get some pictures posted as soon as I get hold of the family camera! Come back soon, I will post a blog after every event of my holiday and hopefully, you will find it as much fun as I will.